I Hated the Story of Abraham†

Is it really okay to kill your son if you think god told you to? Why do we celebrate his act in primary school?

The story of Abraham really used to make me question faith,  from childhood. I hated this story as a child maybe because I was a child too. I mean whenever a person watches a movie or hears a story, it is natural for them to place themselves in that story. giving  themselves a point of view within that scene. Probably why in great films like harry potter for instance. They star an ordinary boy who turns out to be extraordinary. It’s just amazing how comfortably my school teachers told me a father laid his son down like meat for slaughter just because of a voice in his head. Maybe I’m different but as a kid, I received that as my first horror movie. I couldn’t help but think how I almost died because of my fathers questionable priorities, his participation in a game God decided to play and because I was too weak as a child to runaway or fully understand my fathers intentions. Indeed this was horror to me but my teachers delivered it with smiles. Concentrating on the faith behind this act and making him sound heroic. I always wondered; What if God didn’t stop him, what opinion would we then have of God. What if it wasn’t even God in his head. Why was he being faithful to something telling him to kill his son. Where was his love for the son. Was it really faith or just fear and cowardice. Wouldn’t we also praise him if he had said no. Wasn’t ‘no’ the right answer. Was it okay to kill as long as you think God told you to do it….. ‘??????????????????’ to all of these questions that shot through me

I didn’t see him as a man of faith but a weak man who followed instructions. I never understood why this was looked at as model behaviour. I shoved those feelings under the rug cos I was also a kid following instructions. My teachers were never wrong and their smiling meant there’s probably an explanation and I just didn’t understand.

I see this clip and realise nothing has changed. I have always felt the same way about this story and some other stories too. They ain’t the same but this clip paints the same picture for me till this day. God/book giveth joy and God/book taketh but have faith and follow him no matter what direction he’s going. I mean this clip didn’t create this feeling  at all but inspired me to write about it.
I dunno maybe i need to sit with someone on this topic who can explain to me why this is okay. At the moment I feel like we are told these messy stories as kids so that by the time we are independent thinkers it would be so normal to us that we don’t question them objectively because it semi worked on me for a while. I questioned it but still shoved it under the rug. I wonder how others felt about this story as kids.

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Teenage Jesus

Writing this because I have questions for the theologists and the vatican. The people with the access and patience to read all the necessary books on the life of jesus.

What the hell happened to teenage Jesus? Did humans and miracle revelations stop occuring after jesus hit puberty? There is a massive timeskip in the bible and all the preachers make us skip over the gaps in his story.

Do you guys not trust us with the truth. You want us to see his perfection only. Nonsense! The whole point of him coming down here was to relate to our journey. Go through shit that we went through. You’re hiding something and its plain as day to me. Teenage Jesus was a saucy sinner.

You guys make us feel so guilty for erring as humans especially when we’re young. You use that guilt to control us from day one. If we knew half of the temptation he fell for, we’d love ourselves more and be less judgementl of others.

I dont even care about any of that. I dont want to attack church. I just want to know the juicy stories of teenage jesus on rampage, moving reckless in ends. We all knew the path he was on when we read the passage of him talking back to his Rabbi when he was a kid. When your teachers tell you about that story, they praise jesus saying he’s so intelligent. Ladies and gentleman, what you were reading was the stubborness and rude entitlement of a kid who was raised being called the son of God all his life.

Jesus was probably hated by his peers probably got bullied whenever he tried that nonsense attitude on road. You cant be living in broke ends and talking like you’re better than everyone else. Young Jesus was getting bullied and mugged on a regular. No wonder he was so humble he was getting peppered and corn daily untill he killed his bully with his first miracle.

Of course. Theres no way that the wedding at cana was the first time jesus first showed his super powers. Mary was way too confident when she asked her son to fix the wine scarcity. This issue had nothing to do with them yet they performed the “miracle” so they can get liquored.

Jesus absolutely practiced his super powers on the streets. Damn the juicy things he could’ve gotten up to. I know he caught a few bodies for sure. A guy that was confident in his ability to ressurect the dead has absolutely got experience making them dead in the first place.

I believe his teenage antics actually boost his profile not take away. Humilty of a powerful prince. The journey of maturity before he presented himself to be baptised by John the baptist. They should release the stories. If christianity is real then these stories have to exist. Else this is just one of the many reasons for why I dont believe in it

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